OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

MY DIABOLIQUE CD IS ON ITS WAY OMG IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ALL YEAR!!!
IM SO EXCITED OMG I COULD EXPLODE!!

 

DISCOGS I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Since I'm telling you guys about the CD that's on its way i should tell you that I'm planning on buying A COLLECTION of cds this month!

at least i hope to if no one beats me to it.

my favorite band ever that broke up years ago had a collection of cds and i found a guy that sells ALL OF THEM! ugh i wanna buy them rn so bad but i'm way broke. hopefully i'll have the cds by the end of the month, pls dont buy them before me please dont buy them before me pleeeaaaasssseeeee no one buy them i NEED them. well i dont quite literally need them but i'd be so happy if i had them
for some reason the  pictures are blury pls ignore the quality 

today i took my first GAT exam!!

honestly it wasnt that bad like the exam itself isnt bad but i seriously didnt study well.

i woke up at around 10, i took a shower, then i watched some revision videos while getting ready.

usually test centers are full of girls that are all dolled up and i was so hoping to meet some cool people, so i got dolled up too, i changed my outfit THREE times! but i couldnt find a single cool person, it was so sad.

anyways i took the test and i was so happy when it ended like i know im probably not getting a high grade but i was so happy that i finally got it over with. i was relieved and a bit stressed because i have no idea how bad my grade is going to be..

i also had my first meeting with coach shirley!

i was super excited and joined at 7:56 pm, the meeting was at 8, or so i thought. i stayed in the meeting for a good while waiting for coach shirley, i stayed till 8:07 pm, then i decided to reread the email. turns out the link that i used was for the group meeting in a few days!! i quickly scanned all my emails and i still couldnt find a single email confirming that my meeting was today!! i sent coach shirley an email apologizing for coming off as tardy and i asked for the link. turns out my meeting was at 8:30 pm, i was SO releived, at first i was so stressed oh my god my heart was beating so fast because i had been looking forward to this meeting for a good two weeks!

dont talk to me guys i finished MONK..

oh my god its insane i LOVED monk. i cant believe i've now finished both MONK and Psych, Shawn and Adrian im gna miss you.

i honestly accomplished sm today.

phew.

Idiot

I'm such an idiot. 

I lost my bag, 

"buy a new one"
you dont understand, my father's family has been taunting me with my purse, "you'll lose your bag" "there's no way you'll manage to make it back home with that purse in your hand" i proved them wrong. 

A few months later, here I am, no bag in hand. Though I proved them wrong at the time, i still lost it today. on the long run they've won. The reason this means a lot to me is because theyve stereotyped me as just some stupid, clueless, clumsy chick, that's what I'm labeled as. they dont see me for me, they see me by the label theyve written all over me. I'm so much more than just some clumsy girl, or at least thats what ive been trying to show them, but what does it matter now that what theyve expected happened? worst part is, they werent even teasing me out of worry or care, it was out of belittlement. one of the things that made me even more upset was that i couldnt do anything about losing my bag, i couldnt go look for it because the driver was waiting outside and my phone was dead and so many other reasons, i wish i were adult enough. 

 I just finished finals. 

I want to celebrate, but finishing finals just means i have no more excuses to procrastinate important things that will ultimately determine my future. 

Junior year is so stressful, TOO stressful, to the point where i just cant seem to care. 

I'm really scared for GAT, I'm taking my exam on the 19th and i havent studied.. I'm really cooked.

I wish i could lock in but i have no more ambition when it comes to studying and it SUCKS like crazy!!!

Tbh i have no right to complain because i'm not putting in the work, but enough is enough. Tomorrow (technically today) will be the 8th of january, i'm going to lock in and face reality. I'll let you know how that goes.

- warrioress of authentic commitment, Jude.

 First blog ever! This is sort of like an introductory blog maybe. I'm going to write about my day and maybe thoughts on specific topics. This is kind of going to be a digital space to look back at one day, it's also going to hold memories that might not be of value now, but maybe they'll have some meaning in the future.
overall this is my own personal space where I plan on personalizing to the brink, so if you aren't interested just leave. In the end im doing this for myself. If you're just bored and want to see where my boredom took me, then youre so welcome to!

03/jan/26- 04/jan/26
The plan was to finish a chapter of chem  for every hour, finish it completely by 11 pm,  and it was going so well, yet i only finished at 12:30 am, and i didnt even take the last chapter seriously. 
i really hate chemistry, its a combination of the worst parts of math and science, it has to be a form of torture for us high school students. 

instead of actually studying i made this blog, exciting right? i also told jana that she should make herself one so im really excited for hers!!

Here are some of the things that I did today instead of studying:

1- Decorated my necklace with more charms

its so pretty! this is as clear as webcam pics will get i guess.

2- Ordered a CD of one of my favorite albums ever!! I'm so so 

so so so so so so so so excited!!!

3- MONKi 100% recommend watching MONK one season left 

˙◠˙ i dont wanna finish it dude its lowk so good

A few days ago my chem teacher made a mistake in her explanation so when i asked her to clarify (i was confused bc the entire equation made no sense because of her mistake (which i didnt know was a mistake i swear it was an innocent question)) she got all sassy and was like "wake up, hun. its so simple" excuse me??? Then someone pointed out that she wrote it wrong, how bout now? Are you sure youre awake? anyways she rllyyyy pissed me off. Teachers sometimes forget they're teachers, which honestly ruins the entire point of professionalism

. That's all for today! - 1:53 am