Paradigm

 we all have paradigms of others, but what does that mean? 
A paradigm is a mental framework of beliefs and assumptions that dictates how individuals perceive and interpret the world. Understanding the "paradigm of others" requires recognizing that people act based on their own unique conditioning, often viewing their subjective reality as objective truth.

I, for one had this paradigm of my personal coach from MiSK.. Coach Shirley is amazing, I wanted her as my Coach and it just so happened that i was meant to be her student! i look up to her a ton and wanted to get to know her on a somewhat personal level, but she was standing on business and in the meetings we barely had time to talk about things unrelated to work ever so slightly. i'm a bit enthusiastic about a ton of things so i kinda get carried away when speaking, one time i interrupted her and she felt disrespected, as one does when theyre interrupted, but her reaction was extrremely straight forward. i thought she hated me, and i slowly started feeling less and less excited about our meetings. 

in todays meeting all i ever wanted was accomplished, i felt like my relationship with Coach Shirley was less formal, and then while we were talking she kinda sorta cleared up her reaction from the other day, she said she didnt mean to be harsh and that at the moment she wasnt thinking of how i would percieve things, she was thinking of how to prepare me for college because professors hate when theyre interrupted for things unrelated to their lectures, and i thought that was super sweet. anyways so like you see how my perspective shifted after just one convo? i went from "she hates me" to "shes worried about me".

today i started tearing up in our meeting. why you ask? because i saw Coach Shirley for her sweetness, she did such a huge act of kindness and like through it i realized she was totally rooting and there for me! i was super moved! basically MiSK has this thing called Student Representative where they choose a certain amount of students to represent them, and like i reallyyyyyy wanna get elected, it would be like such a huge honor! so i was talking with Coach Shirley and asked her if coaches could nominate students, and guess what she said????

SHE SAID SHE HAD ALREADY NOMINATED ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAS SO HAPPY AND EXCITED!! IM STILL SUPER HAPPY! LIKE THE FACT THAT SHE DID SO WITHOUT ME EVEN ASKING MEANT SO MUCH TO ME LIKE WDYM SOMEONE AS PROFESSIONAL AND SOPHISTICATED AS HER NOMINATED ME? i really appreciated it!! i'm the type of person who really appreciates these types of thiings, like words alone can make me really happy. i felt as though i had already gotten the role. honestly i really appreciate the whole student rep thing cause it taught me who's actually rooting for me and whos not. like sone people dont have a win-win mindset, i'm not saying i entirely have one but i'm always happy to see others around me succeed! like im planning on nominating two girls who i think deserve the role! 

i know to you guys it might seem like its just any role, but this is MiSK, like the MBS foundation, and as someone who wants to become a governess/ministress some day i think it'll help me with networking- but dont get me wrong im not thinking about my future job in this, i just think it would be a huge honor, and like i'd love to help others in misk, i'll work super hard to be worthy of the role, i just hope they accept my application~

thats all for today!